Hildy’s Health Adventure: Psychotherapy with The Good Nature Company, what I’ve learnt so far.

Well the past few weeks have been an interesting few! I have been seeing Julie a psychotherapist from The Good Nature Company. (If you want to catch up then visit my previous blog HERE). Our first session was great we discussed lot’s, mostly about me, and got to know each other a little bit better. I was expecting these sessions to be quite emotionally charged with me being such an emotional person, but somehow I was calm and collected. Speaking to someone like Julie was kind of like seeing myself from an outside perspective which was quite refreshing. I often get bogged down in the should have, would have, could have scenario and I think addressing my issues from the root cause is what is going to help me accept myself further. From all of the soul searching i have done over the past year or too I know that eating healthily and exercising just isn’t  enough! I don’t just have a fat body, I have a fat brain! If I can’t accept my fat self how am I ever going to A/get to a healthy weight and B/ accept myself when I get there. Won’t I just want more and more and the acceptance will never be there? 

In this first session we set some, I’m going to call them “Goals of Discovery”, meaning certain things I wanted to find out and understand about me/yself. As I have discussed in previous blogs, I am an emotional eater and it’s not just when I’m sad or upset, but when I’m happy, when I have achieved something etc. I use food as a reward. If I have had a really good day I feel I deserve something “delicious” and if I have a terrible day or something bad happens or I’m just generally feeling a bit sad or out of sorts I think something “delicious” will cheer me up. Which is why I am on a mission to break this cycle and finally start moving forward with a healthier way of thinking about food. 

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Baby Hildy age 4

 

Julie and I discussed a lot about my family, who else had weight problems and where/when these emotional eating habits started to kick in. We worked through from being a very small child to my teenage years. We discussed life events and why these habits may have come into my way of coping. We also decided that I have a very strong inner child which came as no surprise to me. We got talking about how my inner child is basically my emotions and my adult self is my practical mind. My emotions need acknowledged they can not be ignored and when they are not satisfied they throw a tantrum and end up being all controlling.  What I need to do is satisfy both and find a balance between them in order to take complete control responsibility for myself or “Own It” as the kids say. 

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Baby Hildy age 3

So I was given a bit of homework to start weaning myself off rewarding with food and satisfying the creative child within (and out) by making an amazing sticker chart with small and large rewards for achievements and emotions I would usually cope with or reward with food.  

I can’t wait to get started!

Hildy’s Health Adventure: KW Fitness 13 day Kick Start to Fitness and a bit of an epiphany!

Today I started the first of thirteen days of fitness videos by KW fitness. They are designed to give you a kick start into a manageable regime by giving you a step by step or rather day by day guide to an all over body workout. Today I will be starting day one which is based around legs.

I also had a bit of an experience this weekend. Talking openly about my true feelings around food, emotional eating, food obsession and being overweight is something I have always struggled with. Yes I joke about it tonnes and talk about it, but very rarely in a true and completely honest way. This weekend I did that, and not only did I do it, I chatted about it to a room full of people who have no idea what it is like to be like this none of these people had ever been overweight.

Take a look at the Vlog for more!

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Hildy’s Health Adventure:Post Second Hypnosis Session.

My life has been slightly chaotic over the past two weeks. I have been working hard and playing harder than usual too. So I wasn’t exactly sure how this week would pan out.

After my second session with silvia last Wednesday I really had quite a different experience/feeling after being under hypnosis. The first time I felt super strong and motivated after our first session but the feeling subsided after a few days and I ended up having a big cheat day. This time I had a much more subtle reaction. It is still a positive but much more stable feeling and it’s very much stayed with me the full week.

So here is a little vlog about how I have been feeling this week.

 

Hildy’s Health Adventure: Post first Hypnosis session

Well it’s around a full week since I had my first hypnosis session, I was feeling really good for most of the week. I am certainly feeling stronger willed not to eat food that is not good for my body, I had a couple of slip ups but I have lost around 2 lb. For my first session though I honestly think the hypnosis has worked I really think it has helped me to control myself and able to resist food that is not healthy and food that I do not need.

Here is a little bit of a video diary about how I’ve been getting on over the past week.